For those of you who don't know, I'm going to be a grandma. Yeah, I know, how can such a hot, young chicky be a grandma to be? I am told I barely look old enough to have kids, and even though I am going to be 39, I still get carded at the Casino.
My daughter, Angela is 25. Did you notice I said daughter, and not step daughter??? She is my kid. Mine! To add the "step" in there implies a disconnect of some sorts. You just married her father, some would say. I have had the pleasure of knowing Angela 24 out of those 25 years. I helped raised her. When I look at her, I feel the same pride and joy that I feel when I look at my own son.
Raising her was not easy - I can tell you that! She would be the first to say that there have been so many struggles, difficulties, and tears along the way. Far too many! But I'm going to openly declare something else, I would do it ALL over again. Every single moment. Why? Well, all I can say is that she is my kid. I would give up the world to see her happy. And today, right now, she is.
She has found the love of her life. He treats her like gold! And she is soon going to be a Mom.
i can only hope that her experiences as a parent are as fulfilling and challenging as mine have been. They have been worth every step!
I must admit that I am being very selfish. This Grandson of mine - Landon Johannes is not even born yet, and I don't want to share him. I want to be the grandma that he turns to, plays with, and loves. I don't want to share the "title" with anyone else. That is why I struggle with what I am going to call myself. I want it to be something that is personal, intimate! Oma, Nana, Grandma, Grand-maman, they don't work! It's going to be different, whatever it is....
The best part of all of this is that I KNOW that bebe will not see me as an outsider trying to fill a void! He will know me as his grandma, no strings attached!
Even more amazing and wonderful is that I can finally say with 100% certainty, that I feel that way about Angela too. She is my Kid! mine! and I love her! I'm not sharing her anymore!
Thank-you Angela, for making me feel this way!
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Chantel, as you watch your beautiful daughter prepare for the next stage, I'm sure you'll remember and think back to when it was you. It has been a pleasure to watch Angie grow and (expand) in her life and let us join her. She has become such a beautiful person, even more than she was before. I can't wait to see you as Nanny, or Mammie. (this is what my sister & Mom goes by). My sister said she was too young to be a grandmother (yep, she was about your age the first time. Now she has 4 grandchildren).
Thank you for letting us join you on this walk. I can see you now with the ball and the moment, he's old enough, on the bike. Let's go for a ride!!! Blessings my friend.
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